I knew if I spoke, my words would crush him. I knew that I was not supposed to reply that message. I knew that the best thing to do was to be quite. But another voice encouraged me to speak my mind. How else would he know that I too have rights? How else would he know that my opinion mattered? The battle of the mind continued for a while. I thought I had chosen to be silent; I was even playing some worship music to help me calm down. I prayed and asked God to help me be silent when he comes. A few hours later, he walked in. Immediately I saw him, my anger resurfaced, I thought of just saying hi, then calmly expressing how I feel. Okay, let me not beat around the bush. I talked for over half an hour, uncensored angry talk. When I thought I was done, I remembered something else that would make my point clearer. As harsh and as insensitive as I was, I kept talking. Until I realized the person I was talking to was not even paying attention. I also realized how foolish I appeared.
I can be very loud and talkative. Whenever I am very quiet in a familiar group, they immediately know that I am not okay. My husband is the expert in knowing the meaning of my silence. Depending on the reason why, the duration varies. But it never lasts a day, or it would be too much. I tell most of my friends that I was created a sanguine, so if I try becoming who I am not, then I won’t be fulfilling my purpose. It always comes out funny but it always makes sense. Other times I have used my personality to say things I was not supposed to say, in the name of ‘I am a sanguine, I am loud and I speak my mind’ Well, I have landed in so much trouble because of saying the wrong things, and also saying the right ones in the wrong way. I am gradually mastering the art of being silent.
There’s so much wisdom in keeping your mouth shut. The Bible says in Proverbs 21:23: “The one who guards his mouth and tongue keeps himself out of trouble.” This has become very evident in my life, there are times I have walked out of meetings happy that I did not allow my mouth to get me in trouble. I have walked out of meeting looking so wise because of being silent. “Even a fool is considered wise when he keeps silent, discerning when he seals his lips” (Proverbs 17:28). I have learnt that I don’t always have to say it, other times all I need to do is listen to others and consider their opinions. Marriage has taught me to be a better listener which helps me speak wisely. I have learnt not to say a word when angry, because I make things worse.
Maybe you were almost saying words that you will regret; thank God you have bumped on this article. Don’t say those words. Don’t write that text. It may be someone’s crushing point. No matter how much they deserve a piece of your mind. Be silent. No matter how bad they have treated you. Don’t revenge. The enemy expects you to retaliate, to make noise, to hurt them back. Don’t be used of him to cause more chaos. Instead let your silence speak.
This week God will present to you many opportunities to be silent. Please do not speak. Be wise.