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I like talking about my high school experiences especially when called upon to speak to students. Most of the talk is always about the social life, life outside class, because in class things were different. The lion that roared in the dining hall immediately turned into an ant during a mathematics class. I had my favourite subjects, English, Swahili and Chemistry, those were the main reason my average score was good. But I could chose punishment over a mathematics lesson. Every time the mathematics teacher walked into our classroom, I felt defeated. I knew from the beginning of the lesson that I would not understand everything he was going to teach. I did not even try; my focus was not on how the subject was challenging, but on how I was not clever enough to understand it.
At the end of it all, a miracle happened! When my final results came in, I could not believe what I saw. It was opposite of what I expected, especially my mathematics score. Okay, that’s I lie, I failed terribly. Mathematics was my least score and till now I shiver when I look at my KCSE results slip. You reap what you sow. You cannot be lazy in class and pray for an A. Fast forward to university. Well, I enrolled for a bachelor’s degree in communication; I never thought I would ever encounter mathematics in my life again. It reduced me to an ant, it took away my confidence. But here I was in a mathematics class as part of the general courses that all students must take. This time round, I decided to encourage myself, I kept saying that I can do it, it was a clean page and I was determined to make things better.
Now I can talk about the miracle. I actually scored an A in mathematics in campus. There is a reason why I did not mention my grade in high school. Please don’t push it. The main difference between those two scores was my attitude, I perceived myself as weak and small in high school, I gave up before the exam started. In campus I encouraged myself that I could do it, I saw myself as a lion, ready to conquer.
Remember the spies in Numbers 13? The report they came back with after spying the land was discouraging, they said , “The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. We saw the Nephilim there. We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them.” But then another report came, an optimistic confident report from two of the twelve spies, they were godly and faithful men, Caleb and Joshua, they said, “The land we passed through and explored is exceedingly good. 8 If the Lord is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us. Only do not rebel against the Lord. And do not be afraid of the people of the land, because we will devour them. Their protection is gone, but the Lord is with us. Do not be afraid of them.” They all saw the same thing but brought different reports, all because of their attitude and faith.
Well, it all trickles down to how you perceive yourself. The grasshopper mentality will render you defeated even before the battle. At such a time when the entire world is fighting a pandemic, we need to arise and roar like the lions we are. Not because of our own might and power, but as Joshua and Caleb said, we shall devour the enemy because the Lord is with us. God is our confidence, and if we are confident in whose we are, then we shall overcome. Victory is on our side. He who is within us is greater than he who is in the world.