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Have you ever been ashamed? Probably yes. Many times our actions, associations or speech can cause us to be embarrassed. That feeling of shame and guilt can ruin one’s esteem, it can make one avoid people and situations that caused or witnessed the action. This is the point I have to share my most embarrassing moment. Well I lack words to explain the whole story but it has something to do with falling down with a bag of fries right in front of teenage boys whom i was trying to ignore. If it were up to me I would have transferred to another school and changed my name.
There’s another type of shame that I have encountered; one that has to do with association. I remember growing up in the village, my parents had warned me against befriending some of the neighbours because of their character. Being seen with them was embarrassing my family. The opposite came to pass, I am the one who got pregnant and my friends parents warned them against visiting me. I was a big embarrassment to my clan, I remember one relative completely ignoring me on the road. She literally behaved as if she did not know me. Because it would ruin her status. How do you know that pregnant girl?
Enough about my childhood stories. Now lets talk about our Christian walk. Have you ever been embarrassed to do something godly or obey God’s voice because it will make you not fit in? I have. I remember one time I could not even halt my own meeting to pray because the people I was meeting were not Christians and I did not want to appear ‘too spiritual’. Another time I was ashamed to read my Bible in public because it wasn’t cool, and I was in the company of very cool people. If I dared read my Bible I would not only lose those friends but also embarrass them.
I struggled for a while with being confident with my faith. Until I came across Luke 9:26 “Whoever is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of them when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels.” I remember this one hitting me so hard after campus; the thought of Jesus being ashamed of me before God! Lets just say as you read this I have nothing to be ashamed of. It doesn’t matter where I am, I am confident in who I am and what I believe in.
In a world where everyone is trying to fit in, your faith may be the only reason you wont. The people around you may even laugh at your godly lifestyle. You may be the only one boldly talking about Jesus in that comment section as everyone tries to be funny. Imagine talking to someone in private and getting to know each other, but in public they pretend not to know you. Is that relationship even real? Well, if you pretend not to know Christ in public, then you relationship with Him is not real.
Well, in many ways, standing firm on what you believe will mean losing friends, losing status, looking like a fool. Sometimes even saying ‘God spoke to me’ sounds fake. Sometimes saying ‘I will pray about it’ looks plastic. But, we who know our God should behave like it, no matter what we will lose in the process: Even when no one else is doing it, even when other Christians with leadership positions in church don’t do it. Go ahead and do whatever God instructs you to. Go ahead and live for Him privately and publicly: You have nothing to be ashamed of.