I’m Not Brave, Just Desperate.

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I love watching documentaries featuring people who have made it in life. They include famous authors, actors, musicians, entrepreneurs and celebrities from all over the world. Sometimes we look at them glowing now, and fail to understand their journey to success. Once you get to know their stories, your perspective of them changes. What stands out for me in every story are the moments of desperation, for most, desperation is what compelled them to act. They had no option but to get out of poverty. No option but to provide for the children, no option but to save the community, no option but to fight for their rights, no option but to keep pushing. More like desperate times calling for desperate measures. At first the decision was unproductive, but they kept pushing to who they are now.

I remember a time when I was desperate for a job. I even went for an accounting interview. You are right!  I have never been to an accounting class, I know nothing about accounting, but I dressed up in desperation and was actually interviewed for something I had no clue about. The interviewers praised my confidence; I went back home feeling good for trying. My desperation led me to audition to be a waitress in a restaurant; I was even willing to be a cleaner. All I needed was a job. Through the confidence I gained through knocking doors, I walked into a media house and asked for an opportunity to serve, that is how I landed my first radio experience after school. Most people said I was brave, but I told them, it wasn’t bravery, but desperation that pushed me. I had no option.

In the Bible, we meet four desperate lepers in 2 Kings 7:3-20. They were sick, hungry and were also outsiders. They had two ways of dying; either stay where they were and die of hunger or go to the city and get killed. So they decided to go to the city, even if they die, they would rather die trying. Desperation gave them confidence to walk into the city, and they found it vacated. God had caused the Syrian army to flee from their tents, leaving everything behind. “And when these lepers came to the uttermost part of the camp, they went into one tent, and did eat and drink, and carried silver, and gold, and raiment…” (2 Kings 7:8) This is all because they were desperate.

When we are desperate for God, He makes way. He causes us to walk paths we have never walked before, He clears the path before us, he makes us see things we have never seen before and to experience the fullness of his glory. This happens when we realize that there is no option but to come to Jesus, no option but to depend on Him. When we decide not to sit there and die in sin, when we realize that we cannot remain here and perish, the only thing left to do is to surrender to Jesus and experience “the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus” (Ephesians 2:7).

May desperation cause you to rise up and come to the Saviour, may it make you serve God with all your mind, soul and strength.  He will restore you and give you spiritual riches beyond anything you could imagine or hope for. As desperate as you are, take the first step and turn that desperation into bravery.


4 thoughts on “I’m Not Brave, Just Desperate.

  1. This is in a nutshell active faith,you move because you have to and fully trusting to land somewhere…..My life today is a sum up of these kind of steps. I testify

  2. A broken and contrite heart, God will not despise. We actually come to faith in Christ after reaching a moment of desperation and crying out to Him or mercy

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