“I Have Never Been Eloquent”

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I have woken up many days feeling very incompetent and unable to accomplish anything. Some mornings I even wonder if I should keep up with this writing, other days I feel like giving up on other projects that I am involved with. One thing I have come to know is that if I start looking for reasons not to, I find them almost immediately. They range from, I am tired to I don’t have the experience or the expertise to do it’ I know I am not alone, a friend recently shared an idea they have been planning to execute, and their reason for not starting is ‘I don’t think I am the right person’ so I asked, ‘if you are not the right person, then why did God give you that specific idea?’ Most of us don’t need people to put us down in discouragement, we are already doing a good job; we discourage ourselves.

Sometimes I envy Moses, he had the privilege of witnessing miracles first hand, one on one with God, miracle after miracle, yet he did not believe in himself. I enjoy the conversation between Moses and God in Exodus chapter 3 and 4, so Moses has just seen a bush on fire yet it was not burning, that is a huge miracle, enough for someone to do whatever they are commanded to do. But no, Moses still asks, ‘who Am I? Suppose they ask me who sent me? Suppose they don’t listen?’ God answers Him clearly and assures him of His presence, in Chapter 4, he witnesses a staff turning into a snake, he sees his hand get instant leprosy then restored, and God literally gives him signs that will make the people believe him. That is not enough for Moses, he still says ‘O Lord, I have never been eloquent’  and after God reminding Him that it is He who gives man his mouth, Moses says ‘ send someone else’

I am left thinking, ‘Moses!! Really? What else did you want to hear??’ but I am quickly reminded of the many signs God has given me, the many times He has come through for me, the daily miracles I experience, including the very fact that I am alive, but I have hesitated to follow God’s instructions because of disbelief. Like Moses I have doubted God’s promises. I have also doubted His word; that assures me that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. So if it was my conversation with God, it would go something like, ‘Rawder, I have given you life, given you ideas, promised you my presence, I am your God, I fail not! You are well able, trust in me!” then I would reply, ‘But God there are people who are better at this, I am not experienced, what if people don’t watch my videos?’

What about you, when God assures you and instructs you, do you doubt the assignment and ability or you immediately do what He says? At times we feel weak and incompetent but God uses the foolish things of this world to shame the wise, He uses the weak to shame the strong (1 Corinthians 1:27) God in His word, has already assured you, ‘what else do you want to hear?’

With all his shortcomings, Moses led the children of Israel out of Egypt, he is the one who God used to part the red sea. So if you think you are not a good candidate for God’s assignment, then you are. With God, it doesn’t matter how inexperienced, how uneducated, how poor, how foolish you are. It is Him who gave man his mouth, he makes him deaf or mute, He gives sight or makes blind.  

Today, believe that God knows what He is doing, and do exactly what He instructs you to do.


4 thoughts on ““I Have Never Been Eloquent”

  1. Glory glory.Am loving how the grace of God has been and is operating in your ministry. How i pray for the same grace to operate upon me.

  2. Thanks rawder you have spoken to me so deeply..I will always believe in God who gives me strength

  3. Oh God help me not to doubt myself. Am ready to do your assignment. Thanks Rawder for always sharing.

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